Over the past few months, I've been struggling with bitterness and judging others. This isn't something I've struggled with quite the same before, so I didn't recognize it right away. But by the time I did, it had taken a strong grasp on my heart.
As I've thought about why this has happened in my life, I realize it's because I've been living a life on my own, without seeking after God's presence. I judge because I do not love. I do not love because I do not dwell in His presence. I am not getting filled with Him, so the overflow of my heart is far from love.
I sat in an interview yesterday and it hit me full force. I wanted to cry in the interview, get up out of my seat and hug her, asking for forgiveness. I have allowed the bitterness in my heart to slowly cover my eyes in darkness and block out the light. I have not been seeing people as God sees them, but rather how my human heart wants to see them. It's been hurting, not only me, but my brothers and sisters.
Each person is unique and beautiful in their own God-designed way, and I want my eyes to be uncovered to see this beauty again. I don't want to see people out of my eyes, but out of eyes filled with Christ's love.
As I've thought about why this has happened in my life, I realize it's because I've been living a life on my own, without seeking after God's presence. I judge because I do not love. I do not love because I do not dwell in His presence. I am not getting filled with Him, so the overflow of my heart is far from love.
I sat in an interview yesterday and it hit me full force. I wanted to cry in the interview, get up out of my seat and hug her, asking for forgiveness. I have allowed the bitterness in my heart to slowly cover my eyes in darkness and block out the light. I have not been seeing people as God sees them, but rather how my human heart wants to see them. It's been hurting, not only me, but my brothers and sisters.
Each person is unique and beautiful in their own God-designed way, and I want my eyes to be uncovered to see this beauty again. I don't want to see people out of my eyes, but out of eyes filled with Christ's love.
