My drug of choice.

I'm going crazy. It's 1:40 in the morning and I'm starting this. I know I will regret it when the beep beep beeping of my alarm goes off in less than five hours, but at this point, writing is my only hope.
My mind feels like a racehorse right now. A racehorse on crack.
I made the mistake(unknowingly) of thinking about outreach and the people I met and the relationships I built and the feelings I have towards the people I met; good feelings, just to clarify. I began to think of all of the amazing things that God did over DTS; which got me thinking on how to tell the stories when I have people over, or when I share in chapel. And that did it. My mind won't stop going, and going, and going. Like a stupid energizer bunny. It goes from one amazing thing to the next. It goes from one story to another. It goes from one person I met, to another impacting relationship. I've lost hope of actually going to sleep anytime soon. In fact, if I let my mind just keep going while I continue to lie in bed in hopes of falling asleep, I fear it will be like putting wood on a fire, and just make it worse. So here I am. Trying to distract myself.

While I was at the mall today, I realized my drug in life. This is going to sound strange and possibly slighly creepy. My drug of choice is people. I love people. I love people watching. I love everthing about a person. I love short people and I love tall people. I love people with dark skin and I love people with light skin. I love people who are confident in themselves, and I love people who are insecure. I love people who speak English, and I love people who don't speak a lick of it. There is something about me I'm not quite sure how to describe that just indefinately loves people! I wish I could know everything about a person, their story. The girl that passes me in the store. The older man who looks fragile. The kid who looks like he knows far too much beyond his years. Even the little children who do not yet have stories, I want to know what their stories will be one day. I love people.
I know that my love for people is a gift from God. Sometimes, I think this love is overwhelming; but mostly, I believe that many people in this world do not know how to receive love, because they know not who or what True Love is. This is one of the things that saddens me the most. I want to help people understand True Love.
In short for example, the following video. Or rather, its a long one...


There is so much I wish to do for people, I don't even have a clue where to start. I guess it all begins with everyday living, and the relationships I have built and am building. But still, I desire to do something more drastic! I am rarely satisfied it seems...
To quote Natasha Bedingfield in her song "If You're Gonna Jump" (which, I want to write a whole other blog entry on some of her songs...),

"I got a short attention span
Can't sit around couch potato land
I wanna do all kinds of stuff
Talking about it's not enough
I wanna go to the extreme
I wanna stretch my limousine
I wanna take it way off road
Go where I'm not supposed to go"

Basically, she's says how I feel in those lyrics. Especially: "...I want to do all kinda of stuff, Talking about is not enough. I want to go to the extreme..."

Ya dig?