Not very interesting to the common folk. Or any folk, most likely.

I don't have anything interesting to say, sadly.
I wanted this to be like an instantly exciting blog; it will just take some time.

This is what I feel like: gargle blarg apsldkafjpoce;p.
I want to go to college.
I want to go straight into missions.
I obviously can't do both at the same time.
Everytime I think I've decided what I want to do fall of 2011, the opposite idea pops into my head again and I'm left sitting there not having any idea which to do.

So tonight, I was researching YWAM minisitries and schools, and places in the world, etc. I decided that I really want to go on an around the world trip and visit so many places and see where feels right! But, I just got this feeling of PATIENCE, again. It's not the first time I've had this feeling from God. Along with that and the repetitive feeling that I need to go to college, I went to go fill out the application, finally. When I went to go find the application, I had the feeling that YES, this was right, for right now- because the thigns I'm going to study and learn at college are going to be vital to the rest of my life. So I was like, 'alright cool. I'll do it. I know that I want to study these things, and I know that if I don't go to college soon, I probably never will. (If I get involved with other things/ministries and have a hard time leaving, or the feeligns of being too old, whatever, etc.)" Another rant; one of THE biggest problems I have with committing to going to college is the number: 4 YEARS. I'm much of a forward thinker. When I'm doing one thing I've been looking forward to for forever, I'm not living much in the moment, but rather looking forward to what's next. My mind is always reeling with new ideas and new plans, and I have THE HARDEST time imagining myself 'locked down' to something for four years!! Especially when I love just doing things; and I want to go all over the world and do things for God!
Oh yeah, back to what I was saying.
So I get to the website, finally trying to commit, and do what I felt was right. I go to log in, and find out I already have log-in information because of the universal college application form things. I don't know if that makes any sense to you. But I cannot remember my username or password. I have them send an email to tell me what my username is, but the email account I've used to communicate with colleges, sign up for scholarships, etc has been 'deactivated because I haven't logged in in the last 4 months.' Well, Piss. I reactivate the account, but have lost all emails. So I get the message giving me my username, but now cannot for the life of me figure out what my password is. So, I also have them email me a temporary password so then I can reset it. But the temp password does nothing! It won't work for anything. So I get a second temp password. Still no luck. FRUSTRATION HAS HIT. I have no idea how I can ever again log in if this won't work! And I can't quite make another account because they need my first and last name, hence how they knew I already had an account when I DID try and make a new account- all to just start filling out a college application!!
So, here I was, trying to be responsible for once, and get something done that needs to be, and I got no where. Rather, I think I back-tracked.
And I still have no idea about next fall now.


"I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying ay-oh, gotta let go."
Thank you Taio Cruz, you just made it in my blog.

So. Whatever. I think I'm gonna go have an ipod dance party.

And to finish off, a quote for the day:
"To be right with God has often meant to be in trouble with men." AW Tozer

Peace out girl scout. ♥